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Busy
that's how it's been
but life with toddlers
that is to be expected

I've been avoiding
many things

I've written about
my struggle with depression
I decided it was time
time to decrease my meds
after consulting with my doctor

I would have to say
it was not the right decision
I have slowly been falling
falling back
back into the depths of depression

I had just climbed out
of the deep hole
I was enjoying the wonderful view
I then turned around
and peered back down
then slowly
inch by unnoticeable inch
I headed back down
but my sight was not looking down
not yet
I could still see the wonderful that was
maybe that is why I didn't notice

Things just changed ever so slightly
until the anxiety bubbled
the tears came
my thoughts are muddled
my body is shaky
my sleep is not restful
my mind has thoughts of death
I am overwhelmed
with the slightest thing

I can now see it
the decline
the so slight decline
that continues
but this time
I know the drill
I picked up the phone
insisted on an appointment
as soon as possible
it was not as difficult
as the first time I had to call
two years ago
when I teetered
I'm more aware
aware of the help I can get

I will not slip any farther down that slope
I know what it involves
It may have crept up on me
but I now know what to do
I will climb back out
I will heal
it will just take time
prayer and support
all of which I have

Until that time
I will go back up on my meds
I will enjoy life
I will love my family
I will take my time
I will heal
and I will try again

Menu Plan Monday

We had an unexpected change
in our income as we lost
a renter without notice
and this will greatly
effect our already tight income
so I need to work on
cleaning out the pantry
and the freezer
along with keeping
my grocery budget
as low as I can

MONDAY
Spaghetti with meat sauce
Salad
I have left over sauce from last week
nothing needed to purchase
for this meal

TUESDAY
Pan fried Sole
Rice
Salad
nothing needed to purchase
for this meal

WEDNESDAY
BBQ Chicken
BBQ Potato
Roasted Veggies
nothing needed to purchase
for this meal

THURSDAY
Fancy Grilled Cheese
Tomato Soup
cut veggies
I'll need to buy some
fresh veggies by this point

FRIDAY
Freezer meal
Shepherd's Pie
Salad
nothing needed to purchase
for this meal

SATURDAY
left overs
or scrambled omelets
with cut veggies
nothing needed to purchase
for this meal

SUNDAY
breakfast for dinner
I need to purchase
some bacon

Overall I only need
to purchase some
fresh vegetables and fruit
and some bacon
I'm on the lookout
for some ground beef on sale
so if I find some I'll grab it
other items on my grocery list
pancake mix
whole wheat flour
cat litter
melatonin

I'll be sitting down today
and figuring out a new budget
so I will have a better idea
of what my weekly
grocery budget will be

For more menu planning
ideas and resources
be sure to check out
The Organizing Junkie
and Marvelous Menu Monday

Wordless Wednesday - Jumping

Menu Plan Monday

Okay, so last week
we had my folks here
and there was no plan
we managed
no one went hungry
so that is good

Here we go onto
the new week

Monday
it's a holiday Monday here
and mid afternoon
we are meeting friends
for Ice Cream
at the new Cold Stone Creamery
here in town
to celebrate a birthday
so I have no dinner planned
I think it will be popcorn
or something like that

Tuesday
Lentils and Rice with fried Onions
this has been on my menu plan
and I've not gotten to it yet
fingers crossed I will
served with Salad

Wednesday
Homemade Hamburgers
oven fries
cut veggies

Thursday
BBQ Chicken
Pesto Spaghetti
Salad

Friday
Homemade Pizza
cut veggies

Saturday
Ground Beef and Black Bean Burritos
Salad

SundayWe have a large family get together
and it's a potluck
I'm not sure what I'm bring yet
something simple and easy

For more menu ideas
be sure to check out
The Organizing Junkie
and Marvelous Menu

My Menu Plan
is a bit lack luster
but I think
my family will still be happy

Monday
Crock Pot Roast Beef
Mashed Potatoes
Yorkshire pudding
Cut Veggies

Tuesday
Spaghetti
with Meat Sauce
Salad

Wednesday
Roast Beef Sandwiches
with Salad

Thursday
4 Year Old's Birthday Party
I'm bringing a salad

Friday
Taco Soup
Cut Veggies

Saturday
We might be heading out
to a fundraiser
if not
Homemade Pizza

Sunday
Breakfast for dinner

I'm hoping to try these
Pizza Pockets
to freeze for lunches

For many many more
menu ideas check out
The Organizing Junkie